Dark Matters

1/17/06 continued

When you follow the darkness, you loose more than the ability to share. You become blind to the many gifts and abilities that God gave us as our birth right, capabilities that are part of the human soul and mind. The human psyche gets reduced and narrowed to its lowest physical attributes until scientists can say there is only a brain in our heads and disregard the mind. You become heaver and more sluggish and stuck. Could there be hells where everyone has reverted to a rock?

Once we could fly, now we can barely walk. We should remember that Jesus could slide out of a crowd like magic. How did he do this? He learned how to slip through time? Matter? What we call reality? Aren’t we supposed to be emulating Jesus? Buddha? Other great masters?

The more we sink into the depths of darkness, the more it is like walking through molasses to push out again. We are most of us in this gray molasses territory. Most of us are struggling towards the light. But those who are fast moving the other way, want to bring us with them by turning our world dark too.

I suspect that we are all being pushed around as slaves in different degrees of use, that those among us who have fallen into deep needs and poverty, are slated for even deeper slavery in the coming years unless our prayers work to save us. What is slavery? An attempt to profit by another person’s body and mind. The mind isn’t so easily taken, but given modern technology, why not?

These thoughts are too dark even for me. A large group has intentions to change this situation around towards the light. One light won’t do a lot of good, but a million will. The enemy knows this and even now is attempting to stop the web from working. The web means the freedom of communication and ideas. My friend Y has said, “We have plans to light up the world.” I await his call.

Continued from 1/21/06

I have a wild theory about their belief that the end was coming right away. I believe it may have. It could have been either a reference to the down fall of Jerusalem, they were Jews, after all, or it was a reference to God’s Armada that hung in space above us. And if our thoughts and souls had ended, how would we know? Maybe the whole system was reloaded Matrix style. Maybe God’s dream did a click and we got reloaded and we are back now for a replay? Well, its only speculation, even my imagination can’t contemplate such an idea for too long.

Certainly it isn’t true. Yet, the angels have told me this is our last chance to do it right. This implies that other times we did not do it right. Like the time that they lived through horrors of radiation poisoning and other screaming things. So far, I am told, we are doing better because we are lasting longer this time around.

I have had so many bad experiences with people who are not what they seem to be. Somehow I can tell that they are fakes. Not usually when I am around them but after they leave. They are able to put up a hypnotic shield of some kind that prevents anyone from seeing them as they really are.

These people have stolen the eyes and emotions and what else I don’t know from the person they inhabit. I believe so strongly in privacy, perhaps because I have had my own taken away, that the thought of taking anything from another person seems like rape to me, the worst kind of rape because it grabs and steals their very psyche.

But the angels do it too. As I understand it, their method is quite different from beginning to end. They don’t take another person over; they assume a personal shape that seems to belong perfectly to them in the time and place they enter.

This is a big idea to swallow, but Jesus concurs with this line of reasoning. This means that if I step into that moving frame I saw on the home world and learn how to move past it, that I will be reconfigured into a new form, age, character, and goal than who I am now.

Does this frighten me. I truly don’t believe I am afraid of loosing myself; I wouldn’t mind getting lost away from this horrible old body, but do I know myself well enough to say? Jesus tells me otherwise. That I must accept loosing this body before I can put on another. He means during this life time, not after death. Well, time will tell if I succeed or not. I wonder if the person who I am now on this world would know I was a second person? Fun thinking about it anyway.

Actually, this is another case of the enemies imitating heaven. They can’t do it the right way so they do it by sealing souls? They are probably not all enemies such as terrorists, but may range as petty crooks to dictators. I am not sure.

Speaking of dictators, I am truly upset about Google allowing censorship in China. I tried to contact Yahoo to tell them that if they also use censorship in China that I will stop using them. I can't get through or contact any of them to even register a complaint. Does this mean that they think they are above reproach? Do all the search engines do this?

We in America don't need to worry yet, but we might in the future. The excuses they will use will vary, but it will censorship under a different name, such as national security? We had better hold fast to the freedom we have on the world wide internet, it might not last forever.

2/27/06 cont.

If I knew how I began where I did to find it to chase, I would do it over and over again. It happened like this: Somehow I was thinking about the bad acts of some people. I pretended to send one of them away from hurting another person. Next I found myself in a gray area where houses and trees were mere outlines and all that was real was this thing in front of me. It was shaped like a man, but very thin and wavered as if made out of dark smoke. I didn't hesitate. I threw the light at it and it began to run. I chased it with the light as if I welded a flashlight beam at it. It dissolved when I caught it.

Do I feel like I killed something? No. It wasn't human, what ever else it was. I suspect that it was what Jesus once labeled evil spirits. I also suspect that these evil spirits may be people from the future sending their minds back down to us, hateful minds because the world we left for them to inherit was the opposite of love.

In the bible it says that Jesus sent seven evil spirits out of Mary Magdalene. (He must have needed to send more than fifty out of me. A little joke?). Now I know what these things are and what they are made out of, and I know how they cause us to go against our own better instincts.

What consequences would such an evil spirit experience if it can get into a person and cause it to do something drastic. None at all because it would just leave after it's taunts and power were used up. It is a horrible thing I write here, but it is the truth as I have learned it.

3/3/06

I didn’t pray a lot this morning. I did send the light around in Iraq a little.

I noticed something when I did. I zeroed in on one person and I could actually see something like dark smoke flowing from a man’s body. It was opposite to the light that I was trying to send. I tried to send the dark smoke out of the man, but could not.

Jesus spoke up then and said, ”It is not so easy to get rid of them.”

I suddenly imagined a parasite worm made of smoke that can hang on with a sucking mouth. Even the thought makes me sick. This dark wiggly thing was grabbing tight onto the person, and I couldn’t loosen it.

What will? What are these things?

They must be the same things that Jesus expelled out of people, what he called evil spirits?I believe so. After what I saw this morning, only with my mind’s eye, I realized that some people have this parasite dark smoky-worm-like-thing lifting out of their body. I don’t ever want to see it again or ever let it happen to me.

Jesus said as I edit this that I will see more of them. I wish it weren’t true.

Now I understand better that when Jesus told a person, “Your sins are forgiven,” He was probably sending those things away.

Thankfully, I am sure I will never be able to see such a thing in normal life. I never have before and never want to. How horrible it would be to see the true nature of a person through their smokey parasite. Jesus could see such things, and it must have been horrible, but he could also bannish them from the person. Maybe with enough light flowing from all of us, we will also do this.

3/4/06

I am still trying to figure out how it works, what this smoke snake does or how it gets inside us. Maybe it was always there and we grow it. Maybe we call it to us. Probably if I reread the bible it will tell us what is happening and where this evil comes from. I need to be careful, I tend to over worry about this evil. Why not just let it alone, stay away from it, and leave it be? Why does it bother me so much? Is it that I want to save people from it? Tell them so they can avoid it? Or is it because it is always so close to me? Perhaps it is myself who is most in its dangerous path?

Why hadn’t I ever seen something like this before? Is it that my ability to see grows as I grow spiritually? Makes sense. It is like how my soul measured coming out as Alia. I am sure that a few years back, I would not have been able to be her innocint self. Now I am mature enough to see smoke snakes flow from people. If I am remembering the quick view I had right, the smoke flowed from the person’s central belly region, sticking out from the person’s front then lifting up into the air, like someone smoking a ciggerette. The long tendrel of smoke was not solid so I shouldn’t call it snake-like.

Oh, I just thought of something. No wonder we have a snake in Genesis. It all fits. Dare I put this on the web? Yes. Put it in dark matter.

So when the light comes from our own centers, it disrupts the snake that is there? The snake is foreign to earth and not a part of God’s plan for earth? Do children have this snake? Not normally? Is there always a snake there? Or do only some people have it? Do only some people have it so large?

I think that is the answer. Is is like the conscionse we have on each shoulder. Some people have nourished it and it grows large enough to drift around the person like a dark crown.

On the other hand, the light that we can draw from our center of being can obliviate the dark snake, at least for a while. Or, can it do so for a long time once we have learned how to send out the light.

Yesterday is a good example. I had a hard time and didn’t want to take the time to send out the light for long. Jesus told me later that I am being severly attacked. This means that someone or something doesn’t want me to send out the light. Good. Then the power of the light must be working.This is enough reason to keep pushing and never let myself get caught up in that darkness. That is my goal this lent, plus pushing myself to be more friendly and give complements and thank you’s when ever I can. Can’t always.

I love this, this growth to knowledge. Who would have thought that the smokey snake I saw would fit into the bible so neatly. Actually, it always does. The truth has always been in the bible for us to read; it is just hard to see and find.

Knowing is one thing, what do we do about it? If even I, I who Jesus says has light flowing from my body much of the time, can be corrupted enough to not want to take the time to send out the light, or forget to do so often, then what chance do most people have? I remember when I was going to do so once an hour. I forgot. Now I do it only once a morning. How can I change for the better?

Those old fashioned rules of prayer seem very valuable to me now. No wonder they prayed at the start of every hour. No wonder the Muslems pray five times a day. I pray and meditate every morning. Not enough. Not enough for the world.

What should I do Jesus? What would you have me do? Build up some kind of good habit that will become automatic? Yes, four times a day would be natural for me and easy to remember. It will be my lenten push against this parasite that would manipulate me. I am delighted to have figured out what to do.

3/21/06

But there is no denying another power, a power below God, a power that uses force to move us, that pushes and prods us to move selfishly for ourselves and against God. This seems to be the difference. Everything God and his followers in heaven do is for the betterment of the human soul. Everything this other power does is against human freedom of soul.

I believe it is heaven’s goal to prevent further growth of dark power on earth. I know Jesus wants to increase all people’s spiritual values and to move us closer to the God of the universe. The dark is all around us and most of us can’t know, see or feel it. I can, and the difficulty of fighting against this dark force is overwhelming; so I have decided to go to other worlds and enlist their help. Those worlds I have visited that are less tarnish by the dark that covers us, worlds where the people’s hearts are pure and full of light. They may help us undo the darkness.

We all know that God loves the people, but something hinders our growth. I watched a program about Leonardo de Vinci last night and realized once more how great thinkers, artists, inventers, and others are and have always been pushed down and stepped on. I think it proves the existence of the unseen dark force that drives us.

The foot is heavy that stomps us, and it certainly is not God. Jesus said once there might be about a few hundred of them around. Whatever their motive, jealously, lack of emotion, hate of humans, or some other dreadful purpose, they will not win.

I believe these may be the fallen angels of the bible or these malevolent beings could be considered minor or crooked gods, but I don’t like giving them even the smallest title of god, so I call them Gog’s. From now on I will use the word Gog as a reference to these play-gods, false-gods, mighty gods-who throw their weight around because they are afraid of loosing it. Yes, Gog’s. (Gog is also a heavy character in my next book, the evil one, of course).

3/22/06

Has anyone ever wondered why Jesus thought it so important to step into the fray between England and France in the 1400’s? So important that he used a young teenager to lead armies against England? I am referring to Joan of Arc. I just looked her up in the Catholic Encyclopedia because I wanted to know what year she was born and died. She was only 19 when the court of England put her to death. Was this the same corrupt evil we are fighting today that built up the evidence against her? England must have been rotten with darkness. France may have faired better, but for how long? All the nations have had their share of darkness worming beneath the leaders nice smiles. The dark undercurrents that still infect our world are appalling. Worse is our own apathy to this darkness. Well, I can’t blame anyone; I was just as blind until about five years ago.

I have often wondered about these dark undercurrents in regard to the Kennedy family. I think they were instrumental in helping a young girl come to Canada during the war to have a baby in secret. This may have caused many of their later problems because walls have ears and certain loyalties made sure they were always listening. They thought they were whispering just among the family about the secret girl and baby, but the dark powers can zero in on certain people if there is a specific reason to do so.

This is only speculation on my part after learning much and putting two and two together. The Kennedy’s don’t know anything about me, and I, as that baby, am responsible for some of their woes. How horrible. I would say it is best forgotten, but what would that do to open up this caldron of evil darkness? I say let the truth spill out where it may if it is the only way of bringing light into the world.

As far as France goes, it must have had some good left in it in the 1400’s if Jesus wanted it to win the war. Regarding Joan of Arc, Jesus told me once, "She didn't burn." I assume he means that he took her soul up to heaven before they lit the match? She called out Jesus name during the burning. It hope she was an empty shell by then.

I had reason to check a phrase in Revelation last week. Imagine my surprise when I came across the verse where John sees unclean spirits coming out of the Beast, False Prophet, and Dragon. Just a few weeks ago I saw a dark smoke like trail coming out of a person in Iraq. I didn't see the person's face because I didn't think to look. Now I ask myself, did I see what John saw? Will I next see the dark smoke coming from the False Prophet or Dragon? Will I see their face? I believe so. Jesus has said as much. I guess I will write it here when it happens.

I have heard earth referred to as the War Planet. I wonder if there has been a time in the last thousand years when there wasn’t a war on earth. Once God showed me earth without wars, but it went back more than a thousand years. Perhaps the Crusades began the time of evil? If so, then we are due for those thousand years of peace. I wonder what it says about the state of our souls that we were born here. If we could change our souls, we could change the state of earth.

Jesus just smiled at me as I wrote that last sentence; it must be important.

Why is earth a war planet? I suspect it all comes down to those fallen angels. Those powerful beings I have decided to call Gogs. We don't know much about them except that they are able to use more force than the average person. We know there may be a few hundred on earth, but they are capable of infecting thousands with their darkness. We don't even know when they fell. It could have been long ago, but it could as well be in our future and they are going back to interfere with all the past. This makes the most sense to me regardless of the seeming impossibility of it.

Why do I keep writing about evil? Because I believe that the more we know about our enemy, the better able we are to fight it. All through the last thousand years of history, it hasn't been nations fighting nations even though it looks like it. It has been these Gogs going around in human form, taking up leadership and wealth, and pushing their own agenda. Good people can only try to fight back, but often become infected in the process. Infected people can be cured with the right medicine, the light of God and truth.