6/2/07
Jesus calling us to the mountain to share the light is truly a wonderful, unique event in the modern world. Those of us who answer his call can be considered apostles. We join in an ultra reenactment of the apostles’ meeting after Jesus’ resurrection. Today, it is as if Jesus is back to reinforce and add to the teaching lesions, lessons he used his life to give—His birth as a man, his teaching and suffering, and his personal conquest of time and space.
As the Old Testament often repeats and Jesus’ life after death proves, God is alive. Not only God but his prophets too. Jesus came to show us how to join them, to show us the way home. Those of us who meet on the mountain are on our way through that gate.
6/2/07
I am in the second chapter of Pope Benedict's book Jesus of Nazareth, and I am finding it an interesting and informative book. Perhaps I like best that he doesn’t mind speaking of Satan, the tempter. So few writings dare to do so in an intelligent way (my own included, sometimes). Instead of Satan as the extreme, for instance, ax murder, that is so easy to believe, he refers to him in a more subtle vein as being like a theologian who argues for his own interpretation of scripture, an interpretation that leaves God behind, (pp 25 to 45).
In this guise, Satan would have us believe in prosperity and well-being at any cost and the belief that mankind can make the world perfect if only we would try harder. At times, I have been guilty of this fallacy, too. Now I understand that a perfect world is a good ideal to aim towards, but only if God is the driving force. I learned this, first hand, by traveling with Jesus to paradise worlds, worlds that already have God at the helm. The only way earth can ever truly remake itself is if God enters every heart and mind.
I have also found for myself that Satan, the tempter, is most dangerous when being subtle and sly. For instance, when we are pushed to believe that that religious rules are always more important than prayerful action or action-filled prayer. It takes a mature mind or learned wisdom to see that some rules are not worthy of heaven.
This Saturday morning, or like many mornings, as I am about to begin meditating and sharing the light, I already know I will use my meditation time for business people close to the top of the social ladder. I believe in the value of my meditation, but still find it hard to relate whole heartedly to the concept of praying for people who have everything they need. If I were to give my heart, it would be to the millions of people in refuge camps, people caught up in war, children forced into war or prostitution, mothers unable to feed babies at the breast, people in need of water, answers, and hope. Instead, I will spend my half hour this morning sending the light to where America needs it most, to those who gather in profit like mown grass in a bag, those who make and unmake jobs with a word, those leaders who determine or undermine moral law, those who plough over thousands beneath the excuse of efficiency, those who are just as uncertain of how and what to change as the rest of us. They need as much prayer as any of us do.
I walked with Jesus on the mountain before I turned on the rosary for meditation. We paused and I put my hand in the cold stream of water trickling down a cliff and then bent down to smell a purple flower. As we talked, Jesus assured me once again that he is personally with each person who gathers upon the mountain. He took me to various people also ready to begin meditation and to gather energy from God. Lately, it seems to come directly to us from heaven without the need to gather in a circle, though a circle will always be a valid, those of us who gather on the mountain may be maturing in our ability to intensify and carry God’s light within ourselves.
A number of us began sending out
God's light in
I used up ten prayers of the rosary
in
When the short meditation was over, all of us spread the light to cover the whole nation, below ground and high above. Whales and dolphins sent God’s light energy throughout the oceans of the world and the whole globe of earth was filled with God for a moment. Through all of our prayers, God is already helping us remake our world. Eventually, God's presence could potentially spread everywhere. This may be a naive dream, but what do we have if we don’t hold to hope?
6/11/07
Sunday afternoon I sat in my back yard contemplating this perfect June day. Everything about it sang of God: A quiet street with children’s voices far in the background, flower pots and roses in bloom, vivid green grass from excess rain last week, leafy trees speckling the yard with shade, birds flapping and singing high above, pheasants cawing in the brush, a soft, sweet flowery breeze, the sleeping hump of my old dog on the walk, and a good book in hand. This is as close to paradise as we can get in this world.
Many years ago, but after 9/11, the angels told me something that I will never forget, they told me that disaster struck on just such a day as this. No hint of a date or time was given me but I was led to understand that it would happen in our life time unless we manage to change it. They refuse to get specific except to say that they lived through it. I have spent my effort in writing and learning since that time to do what I can to prevent it's occurrence. Every once in a while I ask if it is still on the books. They nod that it is.
Yet, I must be doing something right. Just yesterday a group of angels hugged me all at once, as if I had done something to deserve it. I was delighted. Yet, when I asked if this means that the day of disaster has been prevented, they did not answer right away. Then I was told, “Not yet.”
So there is still much work to do and prevention to accomplish. Recently Jesus asked me to do something as well.
He said, “Begin taking the children more often.”
I had only been taking a few children into the sky tunnel once a week. He wants me to pick up the pace but did not say why.
He did request that I, “Take them to the meadow.”
I have already begun taking one or two children to the Meadow. I should explain that this Meadow is on the Angel World. It is where I first met with Jesus, off world, where he led me to the Mandela that led me to Shamballa. The Meadow could be said to connect Angel World with earth like the Cathedral of Light that is on Angel World but leaks onto our own.
It is easier for the children to imagine the meadow. It has butterflies and birds, wild tall grass and short, flowers of every color and description, a large lake with a boat moored to the shore and angels, many many angels.
To a child, it may be just another place of magic except for the angels. Each child will only be there for moments at a time, yet they will see many angels. Angels might be the whole purpose of the trip. Plus they can share this magic kingdom with other children.
We don’t have a system in our
schools or churches like in some countries that stress meditation. We so often
neglect the spiritual aspect of mind here in
I have noticed how deeply ingrained ritual is in our lives. We seem to need ritual, sometimes we are swamped in them. I have also seen that we are capable of changing them if the need arises. I have always been of the belief that most people can learn new ideas and ways of see if it becomes necessary. It is becoming necessary now.
The hints have been given to us in the past by both Mary and Jesus on how we should turn our minds in these modern times. Jesus once told a saint that we should contemplate the painting of his facial image. Today he means that we should imagine his face in our mind just as we can with the image of Jesus Sacred Heart. Just writing the phrase brings this symbol of love image to mind. This is a step in the right direction, the direction of becoming intimate friends with Jesus. Any time we visualize Jesus in our minds we are calling to him, communicating with him in love. We can most easily see Jesus and Mary in our minds eye during meditation. Jesus wills we do so.
There have been time when I despair that adults choose not to pick up on such a simple truth. Jesus has always known we needed to be greatly mature before we could understand to visit him personally. This is why he gave us so many symbols. They can help us visualize his purpose. Now we are mature enough to visualize Jesus himself. It is the most valuable form of prayer.
Children know this already. This is why Jesus said that heaven is filled with little children. “Become as little children,” he told us. The ability to imagine is partly what he meant, along with a child's simple innocence, and their ability to shed fears and worries.
I trust Jesus and know he always speaks truth. If Jesus wants the children to travel to the Meadow, then I will take them there. The angels tell me that they are taking children there for visits too. These children's adulthood will be different then our own because they will know one paradise as close by and intimate. I can see them now, laughingly following Jesus into the universe. These are the children of the future, children of love, the children of tomorrow.
6/12/07
This morning, Tuesday during the week, a few of us gathered into a circle to build up energy from God so we could light up the whole world. I first met with Jesus on the mountain. As I looked down from its heights, it was interesting to note that we seemed to be on a variety of mountains looking down at many different cultures and scenes, one after another. Yes, this mountain we meet on is any and every mountain in the world.
I mentioned to Jesus that I should travel with him again to see the spenders of the universe. Jesus answered laughing that I could never see most of it and that I haven’t even seen all the wondrous of earth yet. He is right, of course.
"You took me to some very interesting worlds already," I reminded him. "So far all worlds seem as varied and beautiful as earth."
He assured me that it was true in every case, but added, "Most other social systems of life and worship are not as complex and varied as here on earth."
Thinking of earth, I asked Jesus if we could go to the darkest place on earth this morning, the darkest soul or area. I asked this even knowing our effectiveness would be reduced because we would be attempting the impossible. Yet, I still felt strongly about it.
As we
gathered in a circle, my friend Y and another friend V, other people, and Jesus
along with us, stood in the circle. Everyone agreed that we should begin at the
most needed place on earth with Jesus leading the way because only he knew
where to go. So, we began our journey to the depths of the earth by going to
the bottom of the sea and sinking below the crust. It was strange, we entered
one place, traveled for a while and came out another, if we were following a
trajectory through history. I am not exactly sure where we went but we filled
the earth with God’s light as we went along. When we finally rose to the
surface—in
I wondered if
I had missed something because I kept loosing my focus, off and on this
morning. I reasoned that with such heavy weights next to me, my own focus
didn’t matter. Our effect must have been greater than I expected. With the
whole world swimming in the light of god, (I should mention here that when
Jesus walks with us on earth, he is like a person in spirit) we turned all our
concentration on to
True, there
is no war here in
I will leave off here because I don't know the answer either. If Jesus does, he is not saying. I suspect some few know, but they aren’t the kind to walk in the light.
6/15/07
As soon as I turned on the rosary this morning I suddenly realized how the sound of the prayers could easily become a form of rapt meditation for those in holy orders or others who spend years saying it. I learned to meditate through trial and error after reading books on the eastern forms of meditation. Going beyond your own familiar territory to awaken spiritually is an excellent idea and worked well for me. Only now am I learning that common forms of prayer can work as well. I understand now how a person can become dedicated to life of prayer in a monastery. Jesus stays by their side to help pull them along. But no matter how we try, Jesus aids our attempt to reach out to heaven. This is what is most important, that we make the attempt. Then heaven will stand behind us and keep giving us the push we need to succeed.
Heaven gives me a greater push now that I have learned to combine my meditation with the rosary. Amazingly, as soon as I think I have learned it all, I begin at the infant level all over again on a new rung of the ladder, a ladder that reaches ever upwards towards God. The truly astonishing thing about all of this is that we humans have the capacity to take in such amazing leaps of faith and understanding. No wonder a group of angels became jealous of humankind. No wonder we find the path stony and ripe with pitfalls. But travel it we must if we want to learn what a real human being can and should become.
By the end
of this week, I should feel either more holy, more tired or both. I will be
going to church four times in one week. I don’t think I have ever done this
before. I went Sunday, of course, then Monday before the Legion of Mary meeting
which is usual for me. Then it was June 13 and each month on this day the
church celebrates Our Lady of Fatima because this is when she visited the
children and of course I wanted to honor Mary. Now today the 15th is
the Feast of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. A day for remembering how much Jesus
loves and gives to us every moment of our lives, how he pours out his heart to
end our sorrows and heal and keep us safe from evil if we ask. It seems fitting
that I go back to
Jesus amazed me again by doing something unexpected and special. I was sitting and speaking quietly with a few older friends before mass started, then Father Thomas began the mass by speaking about how all the churches in the world were celebrating the Feast of the Sacred Heart this evening.
I thought of the million vibes of love that must be flowing around the earth this Friday evening. Suddenly Jesus stood close in front of me and before I could take a breath, our hearts combined in one single essence of red air, as if a rainbow had split in two and united us. Jesus heart seemed to actually flow into my own for a single moment. My breath stopped as we bonded in love. I am sure if anyone noticed, my mouth stood agape in astonishment for that very profound moment. But of course, no one did. And this happened even before the sermon began, what must the rest of the celebration be like?
Thankfully, the rest of the mass was more or less normal or I would have been too emotionally wound up to relax and enjoy praying it. Father’s sermon was excellent as usual. He has a knack for bring Jesus down to earth for the congregation. He spoke about Jesus wanting people to care and how important it is for every one to care for each other. "When we can’t give anything else, we can, at least, give care." He said to care for each other should be the eleventh commandment, and then added, but that is what all the commandments are about.
Certainly,
caring shows up in this church. Many people act like close family here. I
thought of this as I listened to Jackie pour her heart out as she sung, “Jesus
cares for us.” Truly she should be on a stage someplace because her voice is as
good as Dinah
6/16/07
This is going to read as strange, even fantastic, but I am going to write it anyway. Jesus suggested that I do so because it will help us visualize what we are fighting. This Saturday morning as I prayed the rosary I saw the evil spirits within us. Later, I speculated if Jesus joining his own heart to mine last night at church could have opened my eyes to the realm of these demons. Not sure, only that I saw them as they truly are.
Here is what I noticed hanging from and flowing out of a few specific strangers I sent my mind towards. I saw large and small dragon looking snakes, winging and wiggling their way out of the center of people's bodies. The snakes were made out of gray smoke. When their mouths opened up, I saw fangs dripping with soul stuff. Some people had only one or two of these things wiggling around, but one or two who I noticed had many large ones. I would imagine a lot of them could fit inside a person because they are made of smoke. As I write this I remembered that Jesus cured Mary Magdalene of seven evil spirits and I suddenly realized that Jesus must have helped me see them as he once did.
Well, they were ugly, but not frightening. As I prayed, I sent God's light into each one I found and watched them try to wiggle away from my reach. They didn't succeed. They dispersed like smoke from a cigarette. Then I shoved a new prayer at them and zap. Gone. I filled the area with God's light to clear it out completely.
Curious, I tried to follow a few after I zapped them. I wondered where they got their source of energy. I carried God’s light forward in my search and followed one to its source. I think I lit up a mind from someone in our future, a real demon? I blasted as much light into the whole area as I knew how to do at this time.
After I did so, an angel from the very far off future, those angelic beings who are pure, told me, “It was reported that you sent the light forward.” I was amazed and pleased to get confirmation that I had actually done something right. It had went without hardly a battle, almost too quick to be effective. This might change as the evil spirits realize we have caught on and know better how to fight them.
What I suspect is possibly going on is that people in our near future have learned how to invade the minds of some of us in the past. They may have good reason to do so. We may have destroyed any hope they have for a normal life, so they have come back to haunt us, to re-live their life through ours to enjoy pleasures they no longer have. Yet, if this is true, if they are mere humans coming back, they have lost the moral restraints that generally hold our behavior together. Are they full of hate for us. We who had everything but threw it away wastefully, we who exploit our resources and so cheat later generations of water to drink and even air to breath?
I once asked Jesus, if the enemy is from the future, what could we do about it? How can you stop something like that? Now I realize that it is possible. I am sure such evil spirits are not all that plagues us, that we can’t blame it all on a future generation. But knowing that some of our fears and hates and tendency towards trouble comes from those evil spirits helps explain some of it. It also gives us something to fight.
What is happening when we send God’s light into a soul is that these smoke-demons shrivel up smaller and smaller. As we keep praying for ourselves and other people, they shrink to nothingness. Those of us who empathize and love greatly can take it a step further. We can follow them to their home and begin to heal their souls too. I believe this sickness began long ago and is constantly aggravated by our own greed. To save ourselves we must not only zap them out of our existence, but feel pity on them too. We must somehow learn to love our enemies, here and tomorrow.
As I wrote this, Jesus spoke to me. He told me that it was true, that it is a truth hidden from us because we have been blinded. Spreading the light is taking the blinders off many of us.
He added, “Keep working towards the good and all will be well.”
6/19/07
I could feel bouts of fear last night, yet I couldn't associate the fear with any reason or specific dream. I woke up thinking about what I felt and questioned why. Why did I feel enough fear to wake up remembering it.
A few minutes later, I spoke about the fear to Jesus.
“It felt like something trying to push through at me.” I told Jesus. “As if my mind is a field of thick cream and bubbles were rising from the bottom.
Jesus told me, “Yes, it can happen just that way.”
This is truly frightening, that no matter how calm I was when I went to bed, during my sleep something can attack me with “an attitude of anger” or “bouts of fearfulness.”
“What if I hadn’t noticed and just went about my day?” I asked Jesus.
He said, “Most people don’t.”
I felt a strong urge to clean myself out. I sent the light down into myself with hope and a prayer. It worked. I felt much better.
Jesus said, “Yes, it is just that easy.”
I decided to meditate deeply this morning and to pray for other people that they can get rid of these evil spirits too. Their attempt to take me over failed, but they obviously succeed with many people. They seem to cause fear most easily. Isn't that why we often react the way we do, in fear? Fear of what? Anything. It could be turned into anything fear of anything. This is how it begins. Either that or an attitude of anger. It can begin for no reason that we know of but grow at every incidence or dumb action by another person. This is what these evil spirits do inside us, all of us. We must get rid of them.
And I know how now. Now that I can visualize them as spirit dragons made of smoke, I know how to dispense them easily. Direct the prayer towards shoving it back down and keep praying and sending out the light until it shrinks so much it evaporates. Great! Finally something concrete, well almost concrete, to do battle against. Smoke with a mind behind, blowing it at us in snake smoke rings. Battle it I will. Believe me, if there is any truth to how I imagined these smoke things, none of us want their ugly smoke hides inside our minds or bodies.
It was easy to get rid of them within myself, but that doesn’t mean they won’t be back. I suspect they keep up the attempt to take us over as much as they can. I suddenly remembered how Mary showed me how she would light up a person from within when we prayed for them. Is this what she was doing also, dissolving the demons within, cleaning out each soul as we pray for the person?
As I prayed the rosary this morning, I went to everyone I knew and with Mary’s help, sent God’s light into them individually. As I did so, I visualized the monster things inside the person and found it enjoyable to zap them. Zap, zip sizzle, gone.
I was
winning this battle, at least. I also sent the light as waves in wide swaths
throughout the country, over and over I sent it. I sent it to
It is probably most effective to send the light into specific individuals, but I believe broadcasting it in waves outwards helps too. Visualizing evil spirits is nothing not new in the world, only new to us moderns. We went through a periods of rationalization and science that disallowed the knowledge of such things. This gave the spirits a playing field in which to build up and multiply, like an invasive species that has no controlling enemy.
Now that I can visualize these things with their long necks and dragon like fangs as if created on a movie set, I and anyone else reading about them, can easily sizzle them out of existence. Yes, I believe we will win this war now. We have them on the run.
Note- Could our government finally be on the move? A $29 billion tax on big oil?
The Finance Committee is pushing a massive tax package, "designed to promote clean and sustainable energy," said Sen. Max Baucus, D Mont. Chuck Grassley of Iowa said "it shows a dramatic shift away from tax incentives towards support for other energy sources and efficiency."
They speak an incentive to cleaner, home-grown energy sources such as windmills and solar cells and cellulose into gasoline. I say, "Its about time."
6/22/07
I need to write something I am ashamed of and debated whether I should put it on the web for anyone to read. Well, here it is. My shame is that as much anarchy lurks below the surface of my public calm as it does in any one of us. Why should this surprise me? I thought I had it under control, but bam, just a few words from a friend, words that seemed to push my button on a touchy subject, and wham. (the subject was whether I should move or not). Anger rose up to the surface as if it had been sitting and waiting for just this kind of opening, a snake of huge proportion woken from its sleeping lair.
Within minutes, I felt shame at using loud words to a good friend. The anger evaporated into smoky air, but the emotion of shame took longer to send away, until I meditated and said prayers to fill myself with God’s light.
I now wonder now if that bout of anger was a good learning experience? I saw how easily any one of us can fly off the handle. Recently, I had been writing about how easily we could sap these smoky monsters into nonexistence. Evidently, they can slip back to sneak and peck at us when we least expect it.
I didn’t loose all control; I just spouted a few angry words, but I can understand better now how someone could loose it, completely. My dismay is that even though I pray every day, even though I talk to Jesus, even though I love heaven, this opening exists for something to wiggle through. Call it the primitive part of the brain if you like, but I think it is something from beyond us that lays in wait for any chance. My opinion doesn’t matter, what is important is that prayer is able squash these urges down. I think in the coming days, we will need all the prayer we can gather up within us.
6/23/07
This morning was instructive for a number of reasons. First we gathered on the mountain and joined into a circle. This seems to be important for my own feeling of God sending energy into me and I think other people feel this way too. Jesus tells me it is good to join in the circle first because we can then feel the power of God working within us. After the circle, we went to our respective countries to spread the light.
I spent the first half of the rosary on specific people and this is when Jesus spoke to me.
When I went to one person, Jesus told me, “That person is too heavy.”
He meant that the person had so many evil spirits inside for me to help. I suspect that the person needs a priest who can pray certain prayers over them. So I left that person and went to another. Most people I went to were strangers who I had picked at random. I sort of zoom in on them as if I were using a camera lens on a specific area. Yet, even as strangers, I often know something about their circumstances, whether rich or poor, sober or drunk, sorrowful or in distress.
Another thing Jesus told me this morning is that the Lord’s Prayer is very effective in getting rid of these things.
He said, “It is truly potent, even more powerful than the Hail Mary.”
I can easily believe this is because in the Lord’s Prayer we call directly upon God. Nothing in the universe is more powerful than God.
For the
second half of the rosary this morning, I sent waves of light out across the
One person I went to, I asked Jesus, “You mean even this person has one of those things inside him?’
Which brings me to the last thing I learned this morning during prayer.
Jesus said to me, “Everyone has one inside of them.”
I got the impression that the best we humans can do is keep small by our own effort and stay constantly attentive. After all, I am learning that we live on a world that is corrupted by such darkness, we can hardly recognize the light’s absence. It is almost natural to have these things in and around us every day.
I remember a movie I once saw in which the man could only see earth’s invaders if he wore glasses. I feel as if Jesus has given me a pair of those glasses. It may have happened when he shared his heart with me during mass on his feast day. Now I have given you a pair. Sorry about that, but how else can we fight a battle unless we see the enemy.
Here is a quote from the Pope Benedict’s book, that relates to the subject of evil, Chapter six, p 175, where he quotes Heinrich Schiler, 1958. “The enemies are not this or that person. Not even myself. They are not flesh and blood…. The conflict goes deeper. It is a fight against a host of opponents that never stop coming; they cannot really be pinned down and have no proper name, only collective denominations.”
He quotes more but this is enough to show that I am not the only one who has searched the enemy out. They have always raged against us, but we may be coming into a specifically dangerous time. I say this because both Jesus and Mary seem to be putting great effort into teaching and helping us right now. This is why Jesus instructs me to write and why Mary is appearing more often. The reason for gathering into a circle before we set out may be to not only gather up God’s energy, it may also serve to clear ourselves of these evils too, else how could we clear them out of others?
6/24/7
It is interesting that we accept Jesus’ message of love, the parables, the sermon on the mount and other teachings, even if we don’t practice his wisdom, but can’t accept the evil spirits or demons. People assume that he just didn’t know, that we on the other hand, do know because we have science. We understand the human psyche and what drives us. We have looked into our own brains and pleasure/pain centers. We, or at least the psychologists, know far more than the primitive Jesus ever could.
This is wrong thinking. I have known for a while that Jesus is universal and knows the future as well as the past. This means that he had access to future knowledge even while he lived here among us. Perhaps it wasn’t perfect knowledge, else how could he sustain himself while walking the earth as a man two thousand years ago. Yet, he had angels who could remind him of his own knowledge, the living prophets still called upon him, and he spoke directly to God. But regardless of how, he knew even in those primitive times, more then we do today what drives us and what attempts to destroy us.
He knew what we still can’t see, all about those forces that darken our world and psyches. The same forces that prevent us from rising and achieving and growing further in spirit. Think of how easily we grow in gadgetry as compared to spirituality. Why haven’t we put as much effort into knowing and loving one another as we have in creating a fit earth for all humanity?
The more I learn, the more I learn that Jesus was right about everything, in spite of science, stress and the modern condition. As we march ever onward and upward, we stay the same. We control nothing. Fears still overtake us, drive us towards death, death still frightens us, living nightmares still plague us. Only Jesus words and guide can help us in ease through these realms. Only God can give us surcease of sorrow. Only God can see fully the smoky strings and ribbons that tie us up and keep us bound. Only God can show us how to untie and escape the monsters within and without, the darkness that surrounds the world.
Ok, I am getting too dramatic here. We have such a beautiful world on the surface so why dare go deeper? Leave it alone to prosper and tend to it gently. But we aren’t doing that. We are tearing it up in parts, misusing it, killing ourselves for no reason.
Ah, lesson over. I haven’t the right to carry on so. I just hope my point is well taken, we should take in all that Jesus taught us, not just what we choose to accept or understand. We should reach deeper and learn to know ourselves deeper.
6/25/07
There is another way of seeing the bible that few people have ever considered--as Star Wars. Jesus often told his apostles that the end was near. He suggested that angels were in a current battle in heaven.
"But from the days of John the
Baptist until now the kingdom of the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and
the violent are taking it by force.” Mat 11:12,
NAB
Another
time after James and John saw Jesus rejected by the people they asked Jesus,
"Lord, do you want us to call
down fire to come down from
heaven to consume them?" Luke 9:54, NAB
Earth was greatly corrupted during Jesus time with these invaders, but Jesus’ life and death changed the people so much that earth was spared such an end. Today I believe we may be facing a similar fate, and only we can save ourselves. What would you do if a virus overtook a whole nation and was getting ready to spread outward?
It may be in our “favor” that the earth is populated by billions today and seems about to undo itself through, if not war, then environmental collapse. Heaven’s angels don’t need to send down fire, we may send it to ourselves soon enough. This is dire and frightening. I can’t help writing of it because it may be as true a view as any other. And unless we get our act together, unless we get rid of the invaders in our midst and within ourselves, our fate may be sealed.
Jesus spoke to me at the alter during Sunday mass. I had noticed the beauty of the mass and how Jesus seemed to take it all in with gladness. I said, “You seem very pleased even though this is such a strict and conservative church.” (I don’t know what I mean by conservative or how to define it).
Jesus answered by saying, “People of great holiness will be needed in the days to come.”
I remembered these words the next morning too, as once again, I was reminded of how great I felt, how greatly honored we all are to be a allowed into Jesus life and teachings. When I was told that mass is celebrated at the Grotto behind the church at 7:30 weekday mornings, I knew I wanted to go, and did.
Sure there was one fire engine siren that went by and the sound of a few air plane landings that interrupted the mass once or twice, but that hardly impinged on the essence of aqua blue sky over head, birds chirping in tree branches, and the sound of Latin mass beneath God’s footstool and in front of a statue of Our Lady of Lourdes.
Lush life was everywhere abundant with trees and shrubs, rainbow flowers, green grass. We sat on chairs set around the fountain of the bronze angel who pours out holy water to Bernadette of Lourdes. I couldn’t help thinking of what a perfect setting this was and also how the grace and holiness of such a mass must leak into the surrounding, run down territory. How could the people living next to the church resist such holiness. (No doubt their resistance is enhanced by joblessness and other strife).
I felt love flow out and away into the air as if the birds carried it like seeds to drop from overhead like berries on the flag stones. Surly some seeds find fertile ground. An important thought considering Jesus words to me at the alter about the dire days to come.
I remember a few years ago, after I completed the statue of Mary I built out of fencing, and complained that it wasn’t good enough.
Jesus quipped “It may last longer than the world.”
It was just a flippant remark and not meant to be taken seriously. But I wonder. I wonder if we better get moving faster towards knowing God or his statement might be truer than any of us can know.
6/25/07
I just realized that I have been neglectful to some people who might read what I write and couldn’t sleep because of it. I keep saying we need to get closer to God but have neglected to tell them how. Many people already know, but I can’t assume that everyone does. Here’s how: The way to God is as numerous and varied as there are people on earth. All you need to do is begin searching for God in your mind. Believe me, some angel, circumstance, event or problem will move you a single step closer to God, and as long as you keep up the search, you will keep finding.
Notice that I haven’t preached any certain religion. This is because I believe that all religions lead to God. I would exclude fanaticism and weird beliefs, but common sense tells us to avoid those. (If you don’t have common sense, then neither I nor anyone else can help you).
Personally, I consider myself a full, Catholic Christian, who is also, more or less, a practicing Buddhist, Sufi, Taoist, and mystic. I might be more, I just can’t think of any at this moment. The religions I believe that I am a part of all believe strongly in love. Therefore, believing in love, makes me a part of them.
Belief in God can be compared to belief in love. But like everyone else, I am also flawed in my ability to love. I keep trying, and failing. There is nothing else to do but keep pushing towards a God/love relationship. Eventually, if enough of us are successful, God will enclose our whole earth in his arms. This means that our minds will be in full communication with God and we will be bonded in love.
6/30/07
I met with Jesus on the mountain before I meditated this morning as usual. We had a nice talk. I told him that I felt the need to assure myself that I hadn’t lost my feeling empathy. He smiled at my worry, perhaps because just standing here on the mountain proves my fear wrong. I am not sure. It was he who told me once that I must always check to insure I don’t loose that love. A feeling of deep empathy is the surest sign we have that we are on the right path to heaven, and vice versa, its lack is a sure sign that we have lost our way.
After my talk with Jesus, we met with a few other people and arraigned ourselves into a circle. The circle is the perfect symbol of oneness and with God in its center, our energy is greatly increase to use as we go around the world in prayer.
I went first to Africa before coming back to
the
Full of dry
tears, I came back to
Then I
turned on the rosary and began to send out the light in earnest throughout the
city and into its suburbs. There are many of us now sending light around the
Finally, we gathered all around the world to join together as we filled the earth with God light. In all I had one of the most successful meditations ever and felt good about it. Truly, this is one of those beautiful, sunshiny, cool days when it feels good to be alive and content. With God’s energy flowing all around us, it was perfect. I tried to share this feeling with everyone I touched this morning.