3/2/07
As I watched the Catholic channel, I learned about a movie I want to see, The Great Silence. It is mentioned on decientfilms.com. The movie is about the monks who take a vow of silence. It took fifteen years before their leader would allow the movie to be made. Now they have for some reason. I believe that reason is to instruct the world in holiness.
Great holiness flows out to us from that center of silence. Their silence trickles fingers of peace into this crazy world of unresolved wants, needs and wars. For some reason, I have felt driven through the years to investigate evil and have learned much. One of the things I learned is that the walls have ears, that just the act of speaking feeds the evil one with information on which to hang, taunt or drive us away from heaven. As Jesus once told us that it isn’t what goes in, but what comes out that is harmful. Someone listened and decided to use silence as a weapon against the enemy, so began this holy organization of monks.
The movie should prove to be a delightful contrast to our modern world's noise and constant strife. I expect it will be as spellbinding to us Americans as it was in Europe, as if a different world were suddenly set down onto this one. It should prove to be a strange and beautiful movie, and I will need to wait until it comes out on disk.
3/3/07
I was amazed as Mary and angels came down to join the gathering this morning. It seemed as if heaven opened up for Mary so she could step through. Yet, I felt conflicted. I didn’t want Mary, the Queen of Heaven, joining us so closely in the circle. This seemed to tarnish my idea of Mary on a pedestal, up there above the rest of us. She is the female aspect of God and too lofty to join us, isn't she? But there she stood, among the rest of us humans in a circle as if it were a normal thing to do. I had to ask my self why I thought it was ok for Jesus to join the circle, but not Mary.
Mary had other ideas. She said, “I choose to be with the people.”
And so she was. The light from Mary and Jesus was so intense we hardly needed to gather in more energy. But we did, and then used it very well as we went to send light to all the leaders on our world.
I don't
know all the leaders, but that doesn't matter. People have joined the meeting
with Jesus on the mountain from all around the world, and each person knows
some leader who needs more light. In every country we went to, we sent each
leader, from presidents to mayors to dictators, a bundle of love and energy
from God. We especially concentrated on each place that has been in the news in
the for the last year,
We went to
This morning, with Mary’s participation, Mary who we Catholics have always known could cut through the thickness of dark syrup that binds us away from God, cut our hearts like a knife to instill love, cut through red tape, will see to it that all people will begin to heal. It is Mary who we've known from the beginning will crush the serpent, or make it harmless, and so she will. Amazing that we may actually live to see such an event.
3/4/07
This morning’s gospel describing Jesus’ transfiguration is one of my favorites. I can almost see Jesus standing there next to Elijah and Moses clothed in light. His face had changed too. Not sure if we take note of that often, but I believe that it shows Jesus truly was from another world. A world that honored him as a king, just as he stated at his trial.
This gospel reinforces the idea that Jesus knew what he was about to undertake. Perhaps Elijah and Moses came to try and talk him out of such an act, or perhaps they came from their paradise world to arrange help in some way. They may have set up the situation where the young boy runs up to Jesus with his cloak and then runs away naked. Jesus may have been given the cloak to hide his body, but also to give us the Shroud of Turin.
We need to remember that much of Jesus acts were meant to teach us primitive humans how to change, how to behave, how to think about our souls, how to get to heaven. This is his goal for us even today. If the earth cannot be saved from its own destruction, then the people will need to learn how to get off it. This is what Jesus means about lifting us up.
When I go with Jesus to visit other worlds, I go in mind, but Jesus is capable of going in the flesh. Potentially, all of us have this capability. Some day, a long time from now, we might become so learned with walking the sky tunnel to visit other worlds that when we get there, we can revert to our physical bodies on that new world. This is how individuals travel from mature worlds. When they travel as a group, I believe they use other means. Hence the cloud that darkened the site where Jesus was standing. The two visitors disappeared quickly because they stepped back into their vessel that probably looked like a cloud.
These ideas might frighten many people, but they should not. We live in a modern world with space ships and instant information sent around the world. We should be able to see Jesus and the world he came from in this new light. This is why he is speaking again today, to help us see. He probably taught his apostles some of what he is only now revealing to us now. We were not able to understand before.
All religion seems to be in progressive steps according to our ability to understand. This is how heaven teaches us. The oldest parts of the bible were geared towards farmers and herders of sheep. The people were given what they could understand. Jesus came along and taught in a new way. Now Jesus is pushing us further into realms of the mind. Mental abilities that the people use on all the worlds where God's spirit resides. This is a mental state of being where God is invited to live with the person internally. A state of mind that is constantly in touch with God. a state of mind shared by the saints and angels and holy ones of heaven, and us too, one day.
3/7/07
This is a statement to those people who plan to choose suicide and murder as a statement of anger. That is all you will get. You will not go to any paradise because there is no room for murders on such a beautiful world. I don't know where you will go instead, but it will be an even more hellish place then this earth that you will leave so abruptly, especially if you take another life with you. No one will get satisfaction from such an act, neither you, the people you kill, nor anyone in this world.
I beg people to pray for those who have already chosen this path because they need our prayers desperately. They needed our prayers and sympathy before they committed such an act, but now they desperately need our help because they will not be able to pull themselves out of the deep unknown mire in which they must have fallen. I will pray the rosary for their souls.
3/9/07
I was busy but felt frustrated and needed to relax so turned on the chants and sat back for a few minutes. My imagination began to wander like it does with most of us and I suddenly caught myself up short with an important question. I sent my mind out to my friend Y to ask him the question.
“How do we know where imagination stops and experience or mind travel begins?“
“We don’t know.” Was his answer.
This was amazing because if anyone on earth should know the answer to such a question, it is him. Buddhists have studied the inner workings of mind for thousands of years so probably know more than anyone else about this subject. If he doesn’t know, what does this mean? That our mind consists of imagination and nothing more? That the idea in quantum physics that we create as we observe is true? That we are entwined with God’s mind and therefore have no limit? What is this human mind?
It certainly isn’t confined in the brain, else Jesus wouldn’t be able to take me to other worlds. I suspect that our minds can only be described with quantum physics, that our minds potentially fill the universe, that somehow we all share in this same, grand mind, that learning to know this super mind might be our purpose. I believe this ultimate mind is God and we are already a part of it, if only a blind part.
Jesus nodded in agreement as I wrote the last sentence, so I suspect that is the truth, what ever it means. I dare not ask further because some questions need a universe of understanding to know what to ask. Like someone a thousand years ago trying to ask how a radio works. The person couldn’t even conceive the materials that make up a radio let alone how it works. Just as many of us still don’t know how the television in our living rooms work. Well, the subject is too deep for me too.
3/9/07
As I
meditated with the rosary this morning, V and Y both came to help spread the
light. We went to
Then, as I looked around and wondered where to go next, I thought of Darfor, which had been in the news of late. Y spoke to me then to remind me that there are many places in need that don’t get into the current news. Certainly, he was right. I took his advise and gathered in a lot of people to hug, some facing a horrible disaster, and some not.
At this point, I felt overwhelmed. This happens to me often, of late. I asked V how I could cope with such a burden. I want to save everyone, but I can hardly save anyone. I remember a few times almost giving up because I couldn’t see any obvious change in people. Jesus convinced me to keep going.
This morning, my friend V advised me to hold my concentration to one inch at a time.
“Concentrate on a small specific area and understand that is all you can do.”
I know he is right. Narrowing it down to a small specific group or problem will help. I reasoned that maybe it is like changing a family, if you can convince one mother to turn to God, she will bring her children and perhaps her husband with her. Like a tiny seed, that little inch of effort can spread to become a field of flowers. From now on I will keep that that single inch in mind. I feel better already.
I was reminded of something else too, how valuable it is to concentrate on a single person as I say a prayer. From now on, when I get the opportunity to show someone how to say the rosary, I will tell them that with each Hail Mary, they should think of a specific person they know who needs help. If they are not catholic, then I will instruct them to say one Hail Mary a day for someone they love.
Also, I will explain that Mary, the mother of heaven and earth, has promised to send blessings to those who pray the rosary, in any form. I am sure that Mary will take note of the person’s effort. She will see to it that loved one’s soul gets help. The purpose of our prayers should follow Jesus instructions to love our neighbor. I believe that if we pray for our neighbor unselfishly, then blessings will flow more smoothly than when we pray for ourselves.
3/10/07
Oh what a beautiful Saturday morning and it seemed that all of heaven came down to help us spread the light. We met on the mountain as usual. I stood next to tiny flowers pushing through the snow with small streams of water nearby that ran swiftly past boulders. The sky was bright blue and the mountain was filled with more people than I dared try to count.
As we were about to begin, the heavens opened up in front of us and Mary and angels stepped down to join us. Then all around us light streamed from the clouds from every direction as more people and angels came to help.
This morning, Y suggested that we concentrate on the leaders of the world once more. We agreed this was a good idea, so instead of forming a line down the earth from pole to pole, we gathered together in small groups and went into individual countries. If we knew the leader, we would imagine ourselves standing next to him or her and sending out the light. I prefer to hug. After I hugged one leader, I asked him to join us in the gathering, and was surprised that he did. Now I ask everyone I encounter to join us.
In this way
we covered all of the countries from
Throughout sending the light, I would speak to each person and say, “Live the light.” Or “Come join us.”
Some people I sent the light to were busy but I let them know that they could join us even while doing their work, that each person could add their own spark of light or prayer to the groups as we tried to help heaven feed our souls. During this time, Mary and Jesus stood above us as, large and glowing in holiness. They stood partly in the sky and partly on earth and their presence kept the light strong within us. I think, for some reason, it is important that we do the actual job of helping ourselves.
After we went to most countries, we gathered once more in the middle of the pacific ocean. Here we sent the light down ward to the center of the earth and upwards into the sky. We sent light to the space station above us and filled the whole space of earth and around earth with the light from heaven. I hope every one on earth will have a better Saturday this week. I know I will.
I was pleased to be able to stay
with the gathering for the whole time this morning. Before I began to meditate,
I turned on the tape of the rosary to listen to, and this helped me
concentrate. As I recited to myself each Hail Mary or Lords prayer with the
sisters, I used each prayer to measure the time I hugged a person or sent them
light. I lasted a full ten Hail Mary’s for
While I prayed, I asked Mary if this was ok with her. She told me I was doing well, that it was ok to use the rosary in any way that will help spread God around the world. When we Catholics say the rosary, we are supposed to use each decade of ten prayers for a different mystery of Jesus, I do this during the Lord’s Prayer and then with the other prayers I concentrate on the person I am praying for. Mary has requested that we all pray the rosary in this way. Our directed prayers will help her enlighten the soul and perhaps change the person we pray for as well as ourselves.
Some things change, but Jesus told me something I didn't want to hear this morning, “You will need to hold to the circle of light for the rest of your life.”
He meant this light that I am learning to keep around myself during Lent; although, I still need to remind myself often throughout the day. Jesus tells me I am doing well. I find it easier if I see it as a bubble. Lately I have hardened it to tough, invisible plastic that no evil can penetrate. Now if I could just remember to notice it every minute during the day, I would be ok. Most days I fail, but some days are better than others. All I can say is that I am learning.
3/11/07
I just
realized something today in church for the first time, or maybe it is the
second time, can’t remember. What I
realized during the service was that the celebration of the mass feeds me
light. At different times during mass, and certainly by the time I left church,
I felt glowing with energy from God. I used this energy during the mass to send
waves of light outward into the city of
The flood of light I received from the mass felt the same as when I stand in a circle with others to build up the light from God. I thought about this on the way home. I asked Jesus about it too.
His answer was, “Yes. Write about it.”
So here it is. (Once years ago, both Jesus and Mary promised me they would make sure that I never ran out of material to write about. This has certainly proved true). That we receive energy from God during the celebration of the mass makes perfect sense. Even though we don’t hold hands during the Lord’s Prayer, as in some churches, we are lined up in rows that could be considered the same as a circle in topology. Of course, the alter is the center that fills with God and overflows upon us. During the mass we send out prayers which is the same as sending out the light, though not visually. God reinforces our prayers by increasing them ten fold and sending them back to us. This is all speculation but I think it is ok. What isn’t speculation is that we receive holy light from God by going to mass.
I am still not good with Latin, but fortunately, I often sit near a person who is. This morning a man in back of me really knew his Latin. His voice helped me follow along and say the correct words. I am learning, that is the best I can say about it. Hopefully, I will be lucky enough to sit by someone who knows Latin every Sunday.
3/12/07
I learned something new tonight as I prayed the rosary. I thought of a few people in my family, living far apart, who I wanted to pray for and then suddenly I sent out the light to each of them at once. Then I continued to send out lighted sparks in a large numbers to many more people at the same time. As I did so, V and Y joined in my effort. This was all new to me, but probably not to them. Every time I learn a new technique, the feeling is magnificent. I could feel the light pouring out from God and moving through me at the same time I sent it forward again.
It is as if God waits for us to make the first move before adding to the effect. We are supposed to save ourselves with heaven's help, and with three of us sending out sparks of light, we covered many people all at once until the dark world looked like an ocean filled with sparkling bits of matter floating just beneath the surface. We reached many people this way.
I think it is a new way for me to use my visual talent. I have learned that, in my own case, I always need to find new ways of doing things because I grow stale if I stay with the same routine. This works with the way I meditate and pray. I used to listen to Buddhist chants and could visualize myself interacting and moving in various ways during the chants. Then I went to Georgian Chants and the same thing happened but in different ways. Then for the last few years I felt mature enough to not use anything when I meditated and sent out the light. Just recently I learned that prayer helps intensify the light greatly, so now I pray the rosary while I meditate. Now I have learned to scatter the same light, not in waves, but in may particles.
I wanted to share my need for change because it think many of us feel the same. When we begin to feel stale, it is time to move forward. Actually, I am going to start learning Tai Chi because I think it will help my ability to concentrate. Jesus has helped me greatly in all these changes. Often, Mary, by Jesus side, has also helped me grow. But all this has a purpose. It is so that I can write and share it with other people. I have said before how much we are loved. This is why all of heaven works hard to help us—rather, they help us help ourselves.
3/16/07
The prayers
at church last night were so beautiful that I feel the need to comment on them.
After the Thursday night mass, a group stayed in the church to say the rosary.
Suddenly, I heard one man’s voice giving the dedication for the rosary this
night. He spoke of specific events that had just happened in many areas of the
world, a murder in
When I send my mind out, I try to be specific with each person. Often, because they are so familiar and easy to bring to mind, I pray for my family first and then people I know. Then I go abroad in the world to hug people. Sometimes I stand in an area and flash a beam of light onto the whole area. Lately I have learned to use a Hail Mary for each individual I hug. My worry is that it seems so little for so few. How can I or even a thousand of us hug six billion people? So I sometimes ask, what good am I doing?
Surly, that man praying must ask himself the same question, once in a while. Our world is so huge with a population overrunning the land that each prayer seems merely one drop in a very gigantic bucket.
We persist
against the odds anyway. Jesus has told me that it is working. My friend V has
said that one a bit at a time is all anyone can do. My friend Y sends out an
army of holy solders to send out God’s light to people. W works constantly in
the
The pace is picking up. Jesus tells me that our prayers are working, that many situations on earth are improving, that our efforts are baring fruit. We are on the way to converting the earth to God’s presence and will. This knowledge bolsters my own confidence so I know it will help yours too. All the angels are filling the earth with their presence to multiply our own efforts in every arena. We are taking active steps to throw off this dark cloud that covers our earth and will continue, and though it takes a hundred years, we will usher in the thousands years of peace promised in Revelation.
3/17/07
Jesus' words to the gathering on the mountain this morning were alarming.
He said, “We don’t know if we can save your world.”
Jesus said these words to us after we gathered together on the mountain. His words pulled me out of my quiet revere. Just a few minutes before his words, I had walked around rocks to examine the tiny plants sprouting up out of the snow. I had been admiring earth’s fecundity, so Jesus words of danger caught me up short. I wasn’t the only one. The thousands of other people scattered among the rocks and valleys of the mountain seemed disquieted too.
I turned to look at Jesus and expected him to be far off in the distance, but he wasn’t. He was right there close beside me, as if I were the one he spoke to, one in a small group of followers. This is as it should be. Jesus can seem near-by to each of us.
At this point, Jesus spoke the fearful words again, “We don’t know if we can save your world.” He explained to all of us that he wasn’t sure when the event would happen that they can’t fix. I got the impression of fifty years or less, and he didn't correct me. He implored each of us to teach all who would listen to get ready.
He said, "Try to get everyone to this point."
By the words "this point", he meant capable of climbing the mountain to visit with Jesus, capable of using their mind to get here, and capable of as great a love for God as the people of heaven.
I wondered if Jesus words reflected parts of Revelation. Did he want us capable of being lifted up? Or did he mean we should leave if necessary by own efforts?
Jesus also said, "You won't want to see your loved ones stay behind." He urged us to teach or gather in as many people as we could, beginning with our families.
He
suggested to me that I concentrate on
Americans are proud of their Christianity. They all believe that loving God, going to church once a week, and treating people kindly is enough to get them to heaven. Now Jesus stands on the mountain top to tell all of us that love and kindness isn't enough. It is only the beginning of a long road towards a union with God and heaven. The next step requires we have enough faith (or imagination) to believe the mountain exists. Well, one thing is true, if we ever could convince all the six billion people of earth to climb this mountain, it would hold every one of them.
I dared to ask the question that was in the back of my mind after Jesus spoke those frightening words.
“Are you just saying this because we need a bit of fear to pull ourselves together?”
He smiled at me, “No. The threat is actual.”
“But you told me once after you showed me New Earth that you would also try to save the old one. Has that changed?”
“I said we would try.”
“You don’t want to tell us exactly what will happen or when do you?”
“No.”
“For the same reason you gave me before?”
Jesus nodded.
Let me explain what Jesus told me once before. He said he couldn’t tell me in detail about the danger about to happen in our future (this was when he warned me about 9/11) because his speaking of the event as fact would solidify it to certainty. Events in what we call the future exist as only potential events, some stronger than others, but all are subject to possible change. To speak directly and factually about what will occur makes it definite like concrete. As long as a certain event is in the potential realm, there is still hope.
By speaking words of such dire possibility this morning, Jesus was saying the problem he sees coming will almost certainly happen. His words set us up to prepare for the worst. I have my suspicions of what the flaw could be, but I won’t speak of them either, though any statement I make has less weight because it would be a guess. We can be assured that all of heaven will keep trying to stop that event; after all, they helped us against Nazi Germany. They couldn't change the fact of war, but they could help us win it so that Hitler couldn't dictate to the whole world. Just a few days ago, Jesus told me, without giving specific detail, that another disastrous tsunami will hit soon. This is not what he means by a coming disaster, he means something much more threatening. Many disasters happen on earth and more will come because of global warming, but the event Jesus warns us to get to the mountain before it hits must be greater than anything we can imagine.
If the problem is that serious, can it still be prevented? Later in the day, I got a brilliant idea. Heaven works by spiritual or sacred means, so even though this coming disaster can’t be fixed by science, (they would know) then it must be potentially fixable with strength of mind and spirit. Therefore if we humans were to get our act together and became spiritual enough to cover the earth in God’s light, we could possibly save our world.
Right now, Jesus and the saints and angels must be sending the creative light of God at the potential problem. At the same time, are we causing the problem to grow even while they attempt to shrink it? I don't know because I don't know what or where the problem will exist, but if my idea is right, then the only way we could ever prevent this civilization destroying event is to turn the earth into a near paradise world.
The Gaia hypothesis may be right. The earth is not an inert ball of rock. God created the earth like he created us and everything upon it. The earth may have its own way to breath of spirit, just like the idea that the collection of trees around the world have a tree-ness about them, or tree spirituality. Planets could have some kind of understanding that is unimaginable to us, and we have been attacking our own planet.
Regardless, if we could convince God to wrap his arms around our whole planet, the problem or flaw might yet be avoided. Most of us can’t imagine our own soul, how can we imagine a soul for earth? Humans could do it. We have done many impossible things with verve, guts and just plane hard work. Tackling this problem is no different.
I became greatly concerned when I thought of the job ahead of me, but mostly for the children. I asked Jesus about the children. He told me that the very young are very innocent and will go to heaven. This will also be true for many of the extreme poor among us who never had the chance to learn. The older children will be easy to teach because they love to learn. Perhaps the hardest to teach will be those who find comfort and wealth irresistible. How can I get the wealthy people to listen if I don’t understand them? How can I do any of this?
Later Jesus talked to me and gave me some idea of the time frame this flaw or problem will occur. I asked him, "Will it happen before fifty years?"
He nodded and said, "Sooner than that."
"Twenty? Ten?"
He would not give anything more precise. So I speculate that we have only one or two generations to pull it all together, or else.
Most days,
I do as Jesus requested. I turn on my tape of the rosary and send my mind to
each member of my family, and those who live nearby. Then I send light out
through
I tell them to, “Live the light.”
It doesn't matter if it is during a meeting or not when I send the message because time is relative when we communicate mind to mind. So my words can reach them earlier or later than when I actually try to contact the person. When we meet on the mountain Saturday mornings, it doesn’t matter what time it is by the clock, we will all receive the same message and find that a large number of people have already gathered to listen. I think time is relative to our perception of it, but not Jesus. He lives in a different time frame because he exists in all time.
3/18/07
Anything I write after that last message seems trite or lukewarm, but like most of us, I put aside warnings and go about my daily life as if all were well. I won't forget, but I can't hold the image of disaster for too long in my mind or I would go nuts. So I will keep writing of other things too.
The bible includes so much information or odd hints that I am constantly amazed when I find it. I have just begun learning Tai Chi and realized for the first time that this too is hinted at in the bible where Jesus tells us that living water (energy, light) will flow from our bellies. He could have been referring to the eastern belief of vital energy that fills our belly. Watch a beginning Tai Chi with Patrick Martin, ( NAUHS 9411 dish network). He quotes words of heavenly wisdom from Lao Tzu (who I am sure Jesus once inspired back in the dim history of humanity), and shows a diagram on how this spirit-energy flows in the body when we learn Tai Chi. I suspect that to some it is a mere exercise, but used right, it will double our energy field.
When I first saw the beam of light pour out of my body, it was the angels who opened up my center to teach me, just as they once opened up my mind so I could send thoughts. Their purpose in teaching me is so I can teach others. At first, the power seemed unending as if it would last forever. Then my ability seemed to slack off. Some days I found it hard to feel the light pour out of my center. I continued anyway because the angels told me I had the light even when I couldn’t feel it. Then surprisingly, on an odd day, the light would pour out so grandly I felt overwhelmed with joy. I would feel this joy every day, but perhaps I haven’t learned control of God's gentle gift of light yet. I think Tai Chi will give me better control. Jesus told me the other day that if I feel the energy flow from my center during tai chi that I should let it go and direct it out into the city like when I send out the light. I believe he meant that they are both the same type of energy.
It is wonderful how all of God’s religious systems on earth can flow together and intermix as one. This proves that the truth is true no matter where in the world you find it because truth everywhere. How could it be otherwise?
3/19/07
Our modern civilization is so fragile that it won't take much to disrupt it. I keep thinking of the threat in Revelation that hints of Hitler coming back. Will some dictator enslave everyone after the disaster Jesus predicts? Possibly. A good reason to get away, if there ever was one, but the thought of leaving some behind or saving only a few makes me shudder. Jesus and Mary both have told me the same thing. They cannot bare to see such suffering which is why their efforts to teach us all around the world has intensified.
I must write Jesus words on the web this week, so I have been thinking of the implication of his words and they frighten me. I have this to make me feel better—he promised me that my sons will eventually join him. I don’t care what needs to happen to them on this earth, I only care that they manage to go on to heaven.
3/20/07
As I rode back with my son Tom's family after seeing my granddaughter’s recital at Central University, I watched the scenery roll past farms then tall modern buildings as we got closer to home. Jesus made a comment about our beautiful world.
He said with great emotion, “We love your world.”
I closed my eyes and agreed. I understood what he meant. I had just seen a beautiful stone church, tall buildings made of glass, and twisting ribbon clover leafs roll past the car. Earth is all beautiful. The variety of culture around our little globe is amazing. The cloths and colors in India, Mosques in the Middle East, rice smoking over fires on China's city streets, onion dome churches in Russia, the United Nations Building in New York, the majestic mountains and rivers, the animals and so much more. All of it came together for me in one mish-mash of a pleasant moment after Jesus words. Once years ago, Jesus told me how much other world’s liked earth's variety, such as our dark and light skin, different cultures, and belief systems.
"Earth is the most complicated world," he told me.
Every world is unique, but I have found that most intelligent life forms look similar on other planets. On earth, intelligent life not only acts different, but looks different (most especially if we include the whales and dolphins. Elephant spirituality I am still not sure of). Some worlds out in the universe are like earth in their level of science and need for religion. Jesus has promised to take me to one of these earth-like worlds soon so I can write about it.
3/24/07
This morning when I met Jesus on the mountain, we talked about the need for change. I told him I was worried that I couldn’t do the job he set for me. He assured me that I could and that heaven will help me as much as possible. I felt better after our talk.
We gathered together in a circle as usual to increase our energy. It took me a few tries to feel the light pour out of me towards the center, but then I felt God’s liquid light pour back to surround me with energy. After a moment, I felt ready to begin.
Y had suggested that we each go to
our respective families, and countries to begin the duty Jesus gave us. My job
is in the
I have encountered a problem with meditating with the rosary. There aren’t enough beads to cover my family and neighbors and every one else too. I always begin by concentrating on the mysteries during the Lords Prayer, (the sisters on my tape say the sorrowful mysteries), then during each Hail Mary I go to each person in my family to hug them with light, and then at each home, I also say a complete Hail Mary to fill their home with waves of light.
My problem is that by the time I
get through my family, more than half of the rosary is already done. That
doesn’t leave much prayer for the rest of
Towards the end of the rosary, I
noticed that more people had joined me in prayer. I thanked Jesus deeply for
their effort. If it included everyone, our problems could be solvable. All of
heaven has been coaxing many people to change. I have noticed their input in
These thoughts of heaven’s effort
on our behalf reminded me of
What we need to do is so simple. If every decision was based on spreading prosperity, education and kindness to all the people, we likely wouldn't have such a deep problem today. Instead, everyone’s first concern seems to be fighting their neighbors or filling their own pockets with extra dollars, dollars that may be worthless before long. If there is an Assembly of Satan at work on our world today, we can be sure its leaders rank in the top percentage of wealth and power while they drive everyone towards terrorism and war or coax us to mimic their upside-down standards.
Ok, I need to get off it. I get upset, at times, because I see the glass of apathy and hate half full instead of half empty. Plus, it makes me feel good to rant against some enemy when I feel most helpless. But I don’t intend to stay helpless. Heaven is on our side. Even though the enemy would block my every effort, with God’s help, I will move forward. If it is afraid of me, more to the better. that means my march through this mire of darkness is effective.
3/26/07
I was coming out of church from a pot luck dinner when I heard a teacher commenting to a few people how the Holy Spirit changed a young boy. This boy wouldn't speak to anyone, even his psychologist. He wouldn't read out loud like the rest of the students, and they made fun of him. She said she prayed to the holy spirit for this boy. One day after she called on him to read, she said to the class, Johnny can read but he whispers so quietly we can’t hear him. She then pretended he was reading as the rest of the class followed along.
The next time Johnny was called on to read, he spoke up a little louder, and the next even louder until finally, he participated fully like the rest of the students. He even began speaking to his psychologist.
The teacher gave the Holy Spirit full credit for the boy’s improvement. I think it was the Holy Spirit who gave her the sudden understanding on how to fix the boy's problem. If she hadn't taken the clue and used it, his situation might not had changed. The Holy Spirit can give aid, but we need to implement that aid.
In order for the Holy Spirit to help us, we need to move the first inch into the solution, then the holy spirit can take over and move the situation a mile forward. We ourselves are the solution, we just don’t know it. The Holy Spirit works through us, but if we don’t make that first move, little will get done. Heaven reinforced her (I didn’t catch her name) own expertise to achieve the boy's healing. Her story reminds me how close Jesus as the Holy Spirit is to each of us. All we need do is try and he is right there by our side pushing our little effort into a big one.
Monday nights I usually go to mass before the Legion of Mary meeting (a demanding and challenging group within the church that is ripe for growth and change). Last night during mass, I had a pleasant surprise. Birds began to sing out side the open side window. I looked up, but my view was cut off by the smallness of the iron window frame and the gray stone wall of the church. Suddenly I felt transported to another place and time of long ago, another time when I might have sat in a church and heard the birds sing outside the church window. The older window had a peak at its top, but the gray stone side wall blocking my view seemed the same as did the bird song. It seemed to me that the bird calling for a mate brought the promise of spring and renewal into the church this evening.
Meaningful also because in a few weeks we will celebrate Jesus resurrection. He lived again so we could live again. Now we have learned that he can’t save our world. For now, I am assuming that his words meant that we must save ourselves. Just as Jesus as the Holy Spirit told the teacher how to help the boy, Jesus will tell each of us what we need to do next to save our own world. All we need do is ask.