9/3/07
This may be hard for some people to understand, but it came directly from Jesus. He wants us to begin thinking of him more as the Resurrected Christ or the Christ Universal. He said the reason for this is that the cross is a symbol of pain in a world and he wants to be a friend and a God amid his people; yet, remain a firm overseer of earth and heaven. He wants us to move towards honoring Mary because she has always been a symbol of gentleness and so can help represent earth moving out of the shadow of darkness. A new potential earth.
This is such a new and startling statement from Jesus that I suspect it will take the about fifty to a hundred years to sink into our awareness. I am sure Jesus doesn’t mean for us to ever forget how he died for us, or the gift this brought us. Perhaps he is pushing for us to know and honor him more often as the Holy Spirit, his role after the Resurrection. More people will come to realize Jesus as the Universal Christ, the Christ who is a part of, yet beyond space and time. This knowledge and understanding is also part of our growth as a world population that has the potential to interact in the universe around itself.
When Mary appears above the city, as the Queen of Heaven and Earth, which she will do soon, Jesus will stand next to us, maybe here, maybe there, sometimes seeming to be this person, sometimes that person, but he will stand to watch the sky with us. This is where he chooses to be, a God among his people.
How can I write this? I believe it truly comes from Jesus Christ. It is hard for many, but Jesus will guide us. I feel that all the writing I have done so far for Jesus leads up to the Universal Christ, no matter that it is hard or different than what we might expect. I can’t help that. I only know what Jesus tells me. Yes, it is truly Jesus who has spoken, truly God who smiles upon us, truly the Gentle Mother Mary as a perfect symbol of an earth glowing more and more with God's light.
Even though we can hardly imagine such a drastic change, we should gather hope from Jesus words. Who knows, maybe the rein of terrorists will come to an end and the different countries will all join to fix the global heating and economic problems that plague us.
9/6/07
I have written many times how nothing I write is new, but it doesn't hurt to repeat myself once in a while. Throughout history, many have learned how to appreciate and send out God’s energy. Such prayers and meditations have been ongoing for a very long time. Early this morning, at 3:00 am in the morning as I said the rosary and sent out the energy of God’s light, I sensed many minds doing the same.
What may be new is that Jesus seems to be calling us gather our prayers in unison at this time for reasons only he knows. It may be that prayers are more deeply needed or that we on earth have reached a certain pinnacle of understanding. It may also be a good time because the world wide web can give us concrete information about our potential to reach this new, promised age of development. We have been on a cusp of change had are reaching a point where either we fall off into disaster or grow together. I hope we grow together.
9/8/07
We gathered this morning as usual and I had a long talk with Jesus on the mountain before I met with other people. We didn’t talk about much, just normal things, but I loved walking with him near the rocks and stream. I don’t take enough time to just visit quietly for talks like I once did. I asked Jesus to help me with a decision and in the final analysis, it was easy. I remembered that I liked teaching because I like the kids. So I will put off receiving Social Security for a while longer.
Well I got off the subject. We gathered on the mountain and I walked around greeting a few people before we began. I asked Y if he thought it was better the way we have been doing the meditations, sending our prayers out to groups in and around our own countries or should we go back to walking in a line.
He suggested that we continue as we have been doing. We can meet at the end to enclose the whole globe with light, which is what we did again this morning. I spoke to V and W about this too and they agreed this way worked best.
Speaking to each person as I did this morning helps me feel connected to them and they to me. We hardly say anything. It is more like a knowing nod at each other’s heart than true speech. It certainly is quicker than speech, as fast as a thought, which as far as I know, have never been measured. Well, here I am blabbing about nothing of important and I promised myself that I would start to cut these writings short by writing less but say more. Guess it is time to stop writing.
This morning, Mary hovered just above and to the side as we gathered into the Circle of Light as God poured a seeming limitless abundance of energy out to us. I began to say the rosary as I meditated and went to people, but I’ll be saying the rosary later again today before afternoon mass. The Catholic church celebrates the Blessed Mother’s Birthday today and we have bought her a birthday cake. I have never participated before so it should be nice getting together with friends for cake after church.
9/13/07
I have been going through such a tired spell lately that it has me worried about what will happen when I can't work any more. I won't get enough social security to live on so need to keep working all my life. I put in for SS but canceled because I need the extra money I could make. I will be 65 in December and feel healthy, but what happens at 75, 80? How could I go to work then when I can hardly get up the stairs at work now? Actually, my dream is to do good enough paintings later in life to sell.
Well, all this worry is silly. Have I forgotten God’s help already? The angels and Jesus and all of heaven will help me through whatever struggles I need. I may be money poor but I am spiritually rich. I must never forget how deeply heaven loves us. Besides, a few extra vitamins a day might perk me right back where I should be again.
9/22/07
I haven’t been writing much for the web lately because I am trying to slow down, but Jesus said to me this week, “You will have something to write.”
I am not sure what he meant unless it is the change that seems to have come over me this morning. I met with Jesus on the mountain as is my habit on Saturday mornings. He showed me the plateau of the mountain and how it was filled with people who choose to join us in spreading the light this morning. It was truly wonderful. A large number of fellow gatherers sat on grass and rocks, walked next to streams or amid wild flowers beneath a bright blue sky. We joined in a the Circle of Light to send and then receive God's energy tenfold back into our own centers. I am always amazed at the unending nature of God's energy.
I felt exceedingly full of God’s light-energy this morning and only needed a swift moment in the circle before I felt ready to walk, no leap and run, across the land. I felt like a giant hovering over vast landscapes of cities and towns as I sent out light-energy. Everywhere I went I laid a blanket of imaginary flowers atop of everything, streets, buildings, farms and a million trip malls.
I wondered
if this is what Jesus had meant, that I would feel so fully energized this
morning, almost as if I needed to send out more and more. I felt like I might
burst with the fullness of it. Huge with energy, I still felt small enough to
walk up to and hug a young teenager I found standing on the street with long
straggly blond hair. She seemed desperate for prayer so I stayed with her
during my next few Hail Marys. Next, I centered on a group of young men
standing in the parking lot of a shopping center. I thought they might be up to
something and sent prayers their way, hopefully to thwart any wrong-headed plan
they might be cooking up. At one point, I met a number of people determined in
their attempt to cross the boarder from
I stepped
giant-like across the land wherever I could, sending out prayer after prayer,
in bundles of God's energy. I noticed
many other people doing the same this morning all across
At the end of the rosary, I still felt greatly energized as if I still had a lot of God's energy to share. I had the opportunity to do so as all of us met together once more to cover the whole globe of earth with light. We sent light energy to every country on earth, and into every nook and cranny, until earth was bathed in the glow of God. This lasted for a long moment. I hoped others, stronger than myself, were able to continue the glow around earth far longer than I was capable of. Y just told me that this is often true. Some specific people are so well trained in meditation they can keep the light strong for a long time. Good. No one would dispute how much we on earth need it.
9/27/07
I had to drop out of the Legion of Mary just recently. I tried it for a year and still don’t fit in or it doesn’t fit me, so it is best to leave. Even so, I have learned a lot from the group of very nice people and isn’t that what life is all about? Learning as we go along? Also I picked up the habit of saying the rosary every day and will continue to do so.
As we of the Legion went out to invite people to the church, a good thing to do because we run into a few people who were ready to hear about God, I was often confronted with a few dilemmas. One problem was that I am unable to tell a person that the Catholic church is the one true faith, especially if the person seemed comfortable in their own belief.
Jesus has taken me to many different worlds with the specific purpose of showing me how diverse, unusual, yet effective worship can be on strange worlds. Even on our wonderfully complex and varied earth, he has never told me that there is only one, true way to worship God. I prefer to follow Jesus lead in this.
I am still writing the book about Mary for non-Catholics, but I still want to honor her in other ways, so I may search out another group to join. It seems that the time is right or I personally feel the pull to do so. Jesus smiles as I write this and so he must agree with me. Or perhaps I am writing this to ease my guilt at giving up on an organization that carries her name? I am not sure. We all keep going the best we can.
9/28/07
Ah, Friday, another day off work for me, wonderful. I luxuriate in the all the time I have to get things done today, which includes starting the day, or ending it, with meditation and the rosary. It is interesting to realize once more how time plays a vital part in our lives yet isn’t set in stone for the prayer gathering that Jesus calls us to. The idea that specific times are not essential for the gathering is hard for us to get a grip on.
I would need to leave at 9:00 in the morning to make it to my grandson’s games this month. For a moment, I wondered what to do about the conflict of interest until I remembered that our meetings are not set in stone. A number of years ago, Jesus tried to explain why this to me, but I have yet to understand fully why time is not important.
An example of how time works is easier to explain than why it works the way it does. For instance, when we use the mind to visit a person who also can use their mind in this manner, we would never catch the person at an awkward or too busy moment. It is as if time and circumstances rearrange around the other person to make communication possible. Also, if we send out the mind to a sick person who we know is awake or sits up in a chair often, our mind goes to that person during those times, even if they might be sleeping in present time. Or if we send a prayer to a person who lives on the night side of the earth, we don’t send it to a person who is laying in bed asleep but fully awake and going about their daily business.
On this level of thought or this mind set of knowing, time and space, slide into place according to …? Ah, here is where I stumble and I suspect it is beyond my ability to understand.
What matters is that Jesus understands what and how it works. He calls us from every area and country in the world knowing full well that some people are living on the night side while others are in full daylight, yet we gather on the day bright mountain together. So when I say we meet at 9:00 am this is just a personal preference that perhaps is not vital to our meeting. We gather at all times, or we could say it another way, the gathering is ongoing at all times around the globe? Here I have gotten lost in confusion again? No, I think as a people we are beginning to realize how important a role the mind plays in the placement of where and who we are or might be.
Writing about prayer ongoing around the globe brings to mind those many monks who pray constantly. Monks who are so holy that their every action in life is a prayer. Truly, the gift they give to the world just by their persistence in prayer is immeasurable. We owe them a debt of gratitude.
9/29/07
I met so
many people walking and sending out the light in
Jesus said, “I am pleased.”
“More and more seem to join. Are you pulling the people in?”
Here I was thinking of free will and how it needs to be our choice.
Jesus answered, “The people who join are growing in spiritual stature just as you have.”
I understood suddenly what pulls people to the gathering. Jesus can call, but that may not keep us. What does make us stay is the feeling that we can actually make a difference to the world. I know I have felt helpless that so many people were in need and wanted to do something, but what? Now, by sending out God’s light to help feed souls I feel like I am finally contributing to the world. Even the small act of hugging two or three souls while praying or sending out the light to specific groups makes me feel worthy because I know their souls are expanding too.
Also, the giver is given back more than they give. This is how God works. The energy seems never ending and expands our own souls as we walk to share the light. I wonder just how much we could grow under God's wing of power. I suspect it is more than even I can imagine. No matter, Jesus as role model is enough to grow towards in this life.
9/30/07
The church that I go to just started saying mass as it was before Vatican II, and I admit I am still confused and get lost most of the time. But when I first came here for the Latin mass I got lost too and finally adjusted well enough. This Sunday, as I tried to concentrate between the priest and choir Jesus stood above and to my right.
“Give it a chance.” He told me
As soon as he said these words, I was transported to a darker atmosphere with lanterns of fire set against gray stone walls and huge glowing candles lined up and down the isle. I sat on a rough hewn bench, though some near the alter were carved in great detail. What I noticed immediately was the feeling of deep love I felt towards God, Jesus and Mary. I don’t mean worshipful, I mean real love. I felt that same depth of love from every person near me in the older church. Our eyes stayed so focused on the alter it felt like a trance. All of us were totally immersed in every moment of the mass.
The trip back lasted only a few minutes, but long enough for me to compare the different states of awareness. I nodded to Jesus that I understood. I might find something engrossing and appealing in the older version of the mass if I give it a chance.
So I gave up trying to follow the mass and just let my feelings take over. The choir helped in singing the chants so beautifully my heart sang along with them. The song during communion was so soft and pleasurable, it lifted my mind blissfully towards God.
I imagine that this is the purpose of bringing back the traditional mass, to give people a deeper sense of respect and awe for the mass. It worked for me this Sunday.
Also, in front of the new mass
booklet was a prayer I read that intensified my feeling of belonging to God. It
was Psalm 42 which said, in part, “We enter Your Holy Mountain.” I immediately
identified with this phrase. What better reference for any church than God’s
When we meet with Jesus on a
mountain it is like entering God's